Wednesday, May 18, 2005
i feel like shit. like shit. like shit. no one will understand. seriously. i dont think anione will. bcos i don even understand. i duno how to salvage this. i duno how to keep my passion burning. i duno how to go on with all this. defeatin is depressing. but i feel like quitting. i really do. cos i wanna run awae from you. from everything that has got to do with that thing. that round thing. haas. lame shit.
i noe i will nvr be as good as her. i duwan to do all the things she does. i duwan to live under her shadow and be like her. but why must u expect me to do the same way. i really dont like it. i dont even noe who am i and what am i now. i feel sooo different. from those years in cedar. i was sooo comfortable with everything. the teachers. my friends. and everything under the sun. i was the one happy kid. but look at how things are now. everything is sooo fucked up. dammnn. but i feel sooo comforted with pple close to me around when things go wrong. it jus keeps me going. ((: thank you. loves many many. -mwahs.


shedded at 4:24 AM

MYSELF!
Felicia
Victoria-JC
Seventeen-Plus
Eighteen-October
Feli_cia36@hotmail.com
LOVES!
Volleyball
Fei Fei
Family
Xiao Ming
Years in Cedar
Mahjong Gang
Being Loved
WINNING(money and competitions)
EAT!

HATES!
Liars
Being Unwanted
To Lose
Having Regrets
Nightmares
all the IF ONLYs